It's the same old talk and the same old things...the same old bitching and the same old games. You get so tired of the same old shit but you're in so deep, is this really it? Your head's so foggy. Your eyes can't see. Nothing is how it's supposed to be. The cycle still spins like it has from the start, and you've tried so damned hard but you're falling apart. It's not about you, it never once was. You're last on the list...just because. It's insane what you do for a payoff so small but your head is still banging against the same wall.
You were led down a road by a person so wrong that you're blind now from vision so clouded for so long.
If you copied and pasted today with back then, it's nearly identical and makes your head spin. What really gives? You're totally numb...robotic and hollow and feeling so dumb. There once was a light and a path found on fate. You miss it so much, you felt so damned great. You want that again, it was pure and intense. In your world of darkness, it made so much sense. When enough is enough and you want to break free, it'll all work out, you will finally see. Your thoughts will be clear and your vision too. That good path you wanted is still there for you. Clear a few weeds, the flowers stand tall. You won't bang your head against the same wall. The fears that you've held, they are nothing...untrue. Research them. Look. It's all you can do. So much can change in a year or a day. Your gut never lies...it leads the right way. -S