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If Only.


The two of them had their own life together in a bubble of perfection that was so fragile but felt so indestructible at the same time. They knew it would get stronger to the point of outlasting everything that threatened it...If only.

That bubble of space and time was flawless. It was sweet and warm. It held all that was pure, unconditional and strong. It was iridescently and faintly colored. It was absolutely amazing and beautiful. It was so fragile but so very strong. It held smiles and tears, and bonds that were unbreakable. It held the softness of a hand, the scent of adoration, the heartbeat of love, and the promises of so many tomorrows. Rain sprinkled on the outside, but sunshine broke through always, as a reminder of much brighter tomorrows and endless forevers. It danced on the water in front of it and in the sky all around and above. It kept heartache out and pain at a safe distance. Nothing ever hurt a mind or a soul or a body.

It was perfect...If only. It was a dream within reach. It was a shared responsibility. It was seeing the blend of tiny little smiles shared with bigger ones in all that was working itself out with time. It was knowing how sweet and amazing that would be. It was a fresh, happy, combined new start. It was lessons learned of the past. It was triumphs of too many hardships that finally came full circle, and paved a way to start new. It was right there.

It was feeling new strength that was discovered and wanting so badly to be better than before...it was the divine freshness of an unexpected journey that gave clarity in a world that had always been so foggy. It held a future of shared everything, from the rising sun to the glowing moon in every day's time. There was no weight or burden placed too heavily on one to carry alone because everything was right and fair.

It was perfect..if only. It was nights filled with sleep, knowing that old, ratty ties were cut free. It was calm and it was relaxing. It was peace.

My God..it was peace. It was a sigh of relief. It was knowing that an entire field full of four leaf clovers had nothing on all of the luck that filled that bubble alone. It was an unmatchable magic that could never fade or change. It was strength. It was forever. It was always. It was perfect...If only. It was taking in the freshest breath of air and exhaling the most refreshing sigh of relief. It was mutual, it was sacred and it was life changing. It was the realization that beginnings can always be new and the best moments in life are endless...

Infinity exists. It was time standing still, it was faith and hope. It wasn't sadness. Anger. Regret. Resentment. There were no tangled ties of puppet strings. There was no manipulation. Selfishness did not exist. One way streets were extinct. Stress was not even a concept. Nothing was “altered” or “fixed” for fear or worry. There was none...because there was trust and responsibility. Not entrapment. It was beauty. It made sense. Everything fit. Everything... If only.


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