I chose the color purple cause it's soft and just like you. But then I felt I'd change it to your favorite color blue. Then I thought of pink because it's dainty and it's sweet. It's kind of close to red though, which you hate, so...delete. Yellow is a good one cause it's pretty close to gold...
I can't use green cause you once said it makes you think of mold. Silver is my favorite or a pretty shade of grey... Or white because it's bright and like my favorite kind of day. Orange just makes me cringe and I really don't know why. So I think I'm back to blue, like a warm and perfect sky. I keep on starting over cause I cannot get it right. What I think and what I see are just the same as day and night. Painting you in colors is much harder than I thought. They all just run together for the battles that I fought. Black seeps into all of them, like sadness, pain and stress. All I tried to paint became a mixed up muddy mess. I wiped my canvas clean and I put away my brush. I dimmed the lights and closed the door, there really is no rush.